My blog Ruthie Mbuba is mostly a platform for me to share my life experiences and what I’ve learnt so far. And the other time, I share my journey of working from home as a freelance writer.
Maybe my blog will share a few skeletons in my closet but I’ll mostly talk of the demons I’ve fought. Particularly the demon of depression. At some point in life, I battled depression which was caused by my life not turning out the way I’d mapped it out in my head. I got lost in the disappointment and it was such a tussle trying to get out of it. I turned to the internet for advice and that’s where I discovered various blogs. Years later, having slayed my demons, I thought “Why not do so for someone else?” My hope is what I share helps readers slay if just but one monster in your life.
It’s for and all about the 20 year old that feel completely lost, the 30 year old who want to start fresh, the 40 year old who never got the chance to follow their dreams and the 50 year old who want to stop saying “my biggest regret in life..” because you know what? Your life isn’t over!
I m a very passionate writer. I began with my blog to help, allowing the readers to be unconventional, learning to accept and let go. Sharing experiences and opinions on life! I wanted a platform where I could share. Hence, I began!!
So who in the Hell is Tony and what is this bologna he speaks about?
Ladies and Gentlemen, Boys and Girls My name is Tony and welcome to the backstory of Tony`s bologna.
I’ve often struggled to put-a-finger-on what the theme truly is for my blog. I’m guessing a reader would probably know better than I, as I never really cared to set an agenda. I don’t know if I’m a satire blog, I don’t know if I’m a personal development blog, I don’t really know what I am, I just am. Not to come off as office-drone-discovering-yoga-for-the-first-time but I don’t really believe in boundaries or labels anyways, they’re all arbitrary and convenient for someone else.
Essentially the question is what do you write about? Well to be honest, I’m selfish, I only write about the things that are interesting to me. I write what I would want to read.
It could be personal development, it could comedy; my mind is always changing. So how has that translated? I often write about the random bullshit that I have floating in my mind. I guess I’m drawn to the doldrums of everyday life and try to find the comedy behind it. My most popular posts have been where I’m poking fun at everyday things like Gas Station coffee, or the stupid phrases people say. Whatever I write about, I try to blend honesty with satire and my goal truly is to entertain the reader. As someone who creates, each word you write paints a picture in someone else’s mind, I want my paintings to be memorable, funny and smile inducing.
They say misery loves company, and I believe I started this blog to escape a sense of misery and the (Unwelcome) company it provided. I had just moved home after failing at a job that I traveled across the country for and was feeling quite low. I just had a feeling that I needed to do more with my life and I concluded that writing was the only avenue that I had 100% control over. So I started my blog with the thought, I don’t know how this will work out, but I certain I’ll be able to leverage this one day. Fortunately it worked out. I been able to use my blog to get me paid gigs, meet new people and really take my life in another direction. I’m happy I started and I’m still stunned by the amount of people who reach out to me saying they like my work. I’m really thankful for gifts I have been given by God, and my readers who make me laugh and keep me going.
Serve, in many ways, as an aid to my bipolar disorder recovery– I wanted to discipline myself to write on a regular basis, preferably as many week days of the year as possible. So often with bipolar disorder, energy, motivation, and concentration are issues. To be able to fulfill an assigned responsibility with regularity is great preparation for getting back to a normal life.
I also wanted to expand my thinking beyond my illness. Way too often, mental illness becomes too much of a daily focus. I had many interests and loves before my illness consumed me. It was time to revisit them, and explore new ones, too. Reading other peoples’ blogs has also been so enriching and educational for me. I follow bloggers who write nature poetry, travel or culinary-related pieces, social and political pieces, and much more. I also very much enjoy their camaraderie.
Exploremy creative side, and dabble in new styles of writing – Prior to starting this blog, writing was not really a major passion of mine. Sure, I wrote plenty of papers and essays at school and university. Many of my past jobs required a lot of writing, too, especially my most recent one. But all of that writing was communications, sales and marketing-type writing. I was good at it, but it sure got boring after a while! I wanted to write stories, reflections, poetic pieces, and articles on completely different things. I’ve written portions of a potential memoir, researched topics of interest to me, had a little fun, reminisced, and looked hard and deep at who I was, am now, and who I’d like to be in the future. Never before had I expressed such passion, emotion, and love in writing.
Share my bipolar disorder experience with others and help to fight stigma – I’ve spent plenty of time at in-person and online bipolar forums, supporting others and receiving wonderful support. I still do, but there are many people out there that are unfamiliar with or have skewed understanding of bipolar disorder, anxiety, and other mental health issues. I have readers of my blog without mental health issues. That makes me so happy! I also appreciate my readers who have shared their stories and comments.
Halfway through last year, I set a goal of publishing at least 200 posts. I’m happy to say that I exceeded 230 in 12 months! That’s enough writing to fill a book, and is the equivalent of almost one post per work day. I can’t believe it! Of these posts, about 50% include some reference to mental health, but the rest are about other topics completely. Looking back at my very first post The very beginning… I achieved what I set out to do. I am tickled pink!
I am looking forward to reading and writing posts throughout 2018. I’m not entirely sure what direction(s) I’ll take, but I think that’s OK. As time passes, this will be clearer to me.
Brian was born in Tulsa, Oklahoma on a cold January day in 1965.
Clearly, the odds were already against him.
But he persevered, slugging through this and that, and he quickly learned at a very young age that some people can achieve greatness with dedication and hard work, some people are destined to awe the world with their ineptness and lack of admirable qualities, and most people are quite happy to simply plod along in the middle, leading pleasant but mundane lives where they occasionally find a stash of misplaced quarters under a sofa cushion and everybody gets to go out for ice cream.
Brian was not impressed with any of these options. He looked up from his paperwork at the Life Goals Development Center, and studied the applicants around him. Everyone else was quickly selecting one of the three avenues, shoving their completed forms at one of the bored administrative people, and then rushing out the door, because “Charlie’s Angels” was on TV in a few minutes and you couldn’t really miss THAT.
In frustration, Brian turned over his application, intent on writing a scathing missive to Whoever Was In Charge that he really didn’t appreciate the skimpy menu of opportunities, and he noticed a fourth career path, hastily scribbled in by someone with vision: “Some people feel compelled to study the world and people around them, and then stay up all night writing down their thoughts on the matter.”
Brian smiled, checked the box, and added his signature with a flourish. And so it began.